||[Nov. 8th, 2005|07:55 pm]
I am grounded for a really long time. I dont get to chill with peeps until late December, and that is only if I work really hard and bring up my grades. This makes me really really really sad.
I hate being at home now, it really sucks. Not getting to go places and hang with friends made me realize even more how home sucks, and sometimes i actually WANT to be in school, and school isnt really that terrible aside from the little bit of work.
recently i've started walking around like everywhere with music. its nice. very nice, and it feels like nothing or like floating or something cliche like that. i go down to the meadow, and have to climb over much fence. I wish I sleeped down there more often. Its nice to lay down there, even though you know horses have access to where you are laying down and if they were really pissed off mean horses they could like kick you and that would break something.
Anyway, I write poetry. I hope my dad lets me at least go to the upcoming slam. My dad is a jerk. Did I mention I'm grounded for a long time?
I wrote a new Oliver the Machine Gun song that Jeff apparently likes a lot, and we played it and recorded it and it should be up on our myspace soon or now or then or sometime. its the one whose string of numbers begins with 3. this past OTMG practice will be the last until x-mas break due to my being grounded. why cant life just be easy and fun all of the time. errrrg. anyway, i write little songs by myself a lot now. folk songs. folkSY songs. i dunno, I think they're neat.
I am a socially awkward person, I think. Sometimes I avoid eye contact with people, I only talk when I feel like it, and walk strange and talk strange (sometimes). I just thought I would address this in blog form. Okay?
Music is fantastic. I like it a lot. For a while recently I went through a period of not listening to much music, instead reading poetry and observing art. But. Whatever. Music rules. ESPECIALLY DIRTY BY SONIC YOUTH!. Oh and I like Against Me now. I dont really know why. One day I decided that my ears often agree with melodic folksy punk and can get along pretty well. I also love Street Trash. They're amazing. Its not your average fast punk, it's different. Thats all I will say, check them OUT.
I watch skate movies a lot now. Who knows why. I download them. I skateboard too, but am rarely motivated enough. I just recently got my board back from Zach. I dunno.
My life stinks right now. I hope yours is good. I cant wait until Christmas break. I might be able to go up to Westchester or Exton or somewhere in Pennsylvania to see Sam Bram on Christmas break, that will be awesome if it happens. I've been talking to camp friends a lot lately, Sam and also especially Schantz. Schantz is a great kid, and one of the few kids my age I can talk to about art and politics and, you know, things that I like and stuff.
Well, this is about it. See ya around, darlings. or darling, if only one person reads this.